I'm so tired. It's been over two years since D-day. He continued working at his job, where she was, despite my subtle pleas (for the first year) asking him to leave. There was much emotional abuse the first six months after D-day (which I had never experienced in our marriage). He was a raging self absorbed man for quite awhile. I gave everything over to God, asking him to protect me. He stayed at his job until two months ago. Six months ago, he let me know that he had continued the affair for 6 months after D-day. He still privately messaged her through work this last year... and he confessed to two other affairs at the very beginning of our marriage, 16 years ago.

I'm hopeless. I love him as a person... but I don't even like him most of the time anymore. There has been much change in him the last six months, specifically. But it feels like too much has happened, even though I once loved him more fiercely than anyone could love another.

Can this be turned around, and how? Because I don't see the hope there anymore.