I am afraid of the EMS Weekend coming up. I read through the "Breaking Off the Affair" newsletter series and I cannot imagine doing this right now. I feel I am anticipating a devastating fate as we approach the weekend; something that is going to 'force' me to decide. And, after reading some of the comments....I think of my Mate and how some have said how difficult it is to be with their Unfaithful Mate after admitting to feeling so in-love, making plans, etc., etc. This describes me and my AP. And, then my Mate feeling that I would make the decision to stay with her only because it is 'the right thing to do' and no because I want to. I truly am afraid of what this weekend is going to bring to us, for these reasons. We are in our 6th week from D-Day, separated without communication. Received Divorce papers the day we contacted Affair Recovery as a last resort. As for me, right now....I don't feel I can end it with my AP....but I feel I'm going to be forced to.