The more I continue thinking about it all, the more memories keep coming back and it feels like a never ending cycle. I feel like this is producing more hurt as I continue to reveal more and more. Today, I was watching TV with my kids and a memory popped up out of nowhere. Why now? Why a couple of days of thinking all had been revealed? It feels like a never ending cycle of revelation with how much I have done in my marriage and I'm not against revealing being truthful, I have no other way but to do so now, but how much time should be invested in trying to drum up all these horrible memories only to reveal and continuously harm my wife's soul. I'm desperately trying to remember, but at the same time, more pops up out of nowhere and it always occurs when I think I have gotten it all down. I need help in understanding this cycle and when to know it is safe to begin the healing, not only for my wife, but for myself as the betrayer. I don't want to continue to delay the healing.