We’re one year from D-Day and we’re losing hope. We completed EMS Online and gave it our full commitment. He is staying true to the marriage. We’re together a lot because he works from home, I am unable to work or remember a lot now. This is my second chance at marriage, my first marriage ended from him leaving for his affair partner. He had watched porn off and on in his adult life, used dating sites 12 years into our marriage, and was quickly caught acting out with a person. He ran back to save the marriage and the life he had, but the good guy I thought I had is gone and I have no trust. It is like I cannot get past it. I see a counselor. I love him but little things happen to trigger me and even if I respond well by going to pray and do not even talk about it, he is depressed. I told him I need him to be strong like at the beginning because I actually have gotten a lot better and if we are both fighting together we might get somewhere. If I think about the D-Day it hurts just as much and I remember every word. He yells now and says he just wants it to stop. I do too but he chose this for me. Should I just leave? Am I one of those people that try and try but can not trust again. Cannot forget. even saying it makes me cry but he acts like I am killing him every time I struggle.