My husband has been having this affair for almost two years. We have completed EMS Online and I am almost finished with Harboring Hope. I gave myself until the end of last year to make a decision. My husband has not ended the affair and it's now 2020. He works away and we are sort of trying to make our way through things around childcare etc. I see him every two weeks. We have had some conversations but nothing indicates he is safe or wiling to do what is necessary to be safe, get help and end the affair. He says he cannot commit to anybody and so keeps us on strings. I have worked through so much and let go and I feel peace in my heart, the question is, I still tell him my true feelings and somehow think that maybe I will get a different answer when I don't see any..Why do I keep looking for hope? When I have no reason too? I also found out that I have had a trauma bond to him, could this be the reason?