Don't feel like a fool. A fool is someone who does not seek wisdom. You are seeking wisdom, asking for help and advice.
I would suggest having a phone call or meeting in person with Rick of AR. He was unfaithful 4 times and now leads AR. If you want to understand a pirate its a good idea to consult with a former master pirate. His wife has had to forgive him of 4 affairs. So he can share what works and doesn't work.
It is important to forgive. But don't make that your first priority. I would recommend making your relationship to God your #1 place right now. And that your husband behaves safely (whatever that looks like to you) while you think about your next step.
I'm sorry there are 3 sons in the picture to muddy it for you. But really I don't see anywhere in the bible where it says children are an excuse for infidelity, or Trust God with your sons, not your husband. God will care for them. They were made by him, he knows how many hairs on each of their heads. Its important that your life is not ransomed for the raising of your sons with an unfaithful husband. God ransomed his only son for you, for your life, not for your situation. Do what is right as a steward of God's image in you, that does not mean become a 2nd wife to your husband.
I know its conventional to tell people to fight for the marriage. But I don't believe that. I believe you fight for your relationship with God.
Also its very important to get personal help. Call AR and speak to a counselor there. You need a specialist. Second its important that you have some personal help like a dear friend, parents, sibling, someone you know who will be there for you. Don't try to work this alone, it doesn't happen. God is not in favor of us hiding our needs from the community of believers and our circle of society. They can help you.
Don't feel like a fool. A
Don't feel like a fool. A fool is someone who does not seek wisdom. You are seeking wisdom, asking for help and advice.
I would suggest having a phone call or meeting in person with Rick of AR. He was unfaithful 4 times and now leads AR. If you want to understand a pirate its a good idea to consult with a former master pirate. His wife has had to forgive him of 4 affairs. So he can share what works and doesn't work.
It is important to forgive. But don't make that your first priority. I would recommend making your relationship to God your #1 place right now. And that your husband behaves safely (whatever that looks like to you) while you think about your next step.
I'm sorry there are 3 sons in the picture to muddy it for you. But really I don't see anywhere in the bible where it says children are an excuse for infidelity, or Trust God with your sons, not your husband. God will care for them. They were made by him, he knows how many hairs on each of their heads. Its important that your life is not ransomed for the raising of your sons with an unfaithful husband. God ransomed his only son for you, for your life, not for your situation. Do what is right as a steward of God's image in you, that does not mean become a 2nd wife to your husband.
I know its conventional to tell people to fight for the marriage. But I don't believe that. I believe you fight for your relationship with God.
Also its very important to get personal help. Call AR and speak to a counselor there. You need a specialist. Second its important that you have some personal help like a dear friend, parents, sibling, someone you know who will be there for you. Don't try to work this alone, it doesn't happen. God is not in favor of us hiding our needs from the community of believers and our circle of society. They can help you.