D-day was 2 years ago and I still feel as disconnected with my unfaithful wife as the day I brought the affair to light. She talks to me but nothing deep. We have been in counseling constantly, but everything is oriented to her boundaries and why I was so bad that she got caught up in her 2 year emotional affair.
I long for spiritual, emotional and physical closeness, but she never kisses me, holds my hand, cuddles on the couch or gives me a hug. My spirit is crushed and devestated. I wish I didn't love her and we could have a new fresh start to our 23 years of marriage but my dreams for anything better just wither and die on a daily basis.
It has gotten to the point where I find myself thinking of life without her, moving on and finding someone who will love, desire and cherish me. If it wasn't for our 3 children, I probably would have given up a long tme ago, but for some reason I put myself through this daily he'll and just keep praying something will change.
Am I crazy for hoping and dreaming that God will soften her heart and our marriage can rise from the ashes and made into something beautiful? My heart is so broken.
2 years and still stuck
D-day was 2 years ago and I still feel as disconnected with my unfaithful wife as the day I brought the affair to light. She talks to me but nothing deep. We have been in counseling constantly, but everything is oriented to her boundaries and why I was so bad that she got caught up in her 2 year emotional affair.
I long for spiritual, emotional and physical closeness, but she never kisses me, holds my hand, cuddles on the couch or gives me a hug. My spirit is crushed and devestated. I wish I didn't love her and we could have a new fresh start to our 23 years of marriage but my dreams for anything better just wither and die on a daily basis.
It has gotten to the point where I find myself thinking of life without her, moving on and finding someone who will love, desire and cherish me. If it wasn't for our 3 children, I probably would have given up a long tme ago, but for some reason I put myself through this daily he'll and just keep praying something will change.
Am I crazy for hoping and dreaming that God will soften her heart and our marriage can rise from the ashes and made into something beautiful? My heart is so broken.