Bridge building

This is spot on for where we are , 2 plus years from d day. But, despite my taking ownership, getting over defensiveness, doing the work you outline, the bridges don't seem to hold. We really haven't had any talks since COVID hit because if things escalated, neither of us had an option of leaving, separating, etc. During this time, we've been cordial, but I've absolutely lost any motivation to attempt another bridge building effort. How do I get it back? That's assuming that I want it back.
Signed ,
Dazed and Confused(good Austin reference)