How do I turn this around

HI Samual

Thank you for sharing, this hit home so much a feel ice cold. My wife (betrayed) is right there. I have struggled and failed to connect and show real empathy for most of the time since d-day (almost 14 months out).

I have an extremely stressful job, I work 7 days a week for months on end and I can see I have done so much of what you have said here. And so has she. She wanted to leave already but the COVID travel bans has meant she can't get a flight.

This week I lashed out during a moment in which she flooded and it got ugly. I don't want to be like this but I am not coping.

I know nothing can excuse my actions. I have failed, I am wrong for being like this. She deserves so much better.

I am so scared, she has withdrawn and I don't know where to start.

When is there no more hope? Can we turn this around?

I have never felt its too late until now.