it will take a process

have you considered any of our courses?  you'll need an expert process my friend.  a way of moving forward slowly yet with expert help to unravel what's going on inside of you while also healing it and helping heal your wife.  there's no way around the process that you both need for healing and restoration.  without it, it will be very tough.  look at our weekend and/or online courses as they will help you both.