I have been walking with God for the majority of my life...I am 45 with a 30 year walk. That is not said to impress anyone, because I found our "Healer" has not comforted me in the pain of my (now ex) wife's betrayals, abandonment, lack of remorse OR repentance for her actions, and her continued lies to justify all of it. I tried to (begged her) to stay, saying that I was willing to work through the fact of her now discovered affairs. She would not have it. She wasn't interested in reconciling...she wasn't interested in restoration...all she wanted to do was cast me aside (and, in the process, abandon her children).
And so, I have been forced to move to divorce, and realize that she was gone long before she ever left me...long before I discovered the affairs. And now, on TOP of everything else, I HAVE to forgive her; that's a mandate from Christ Himself. I MUST forgive, lest God not forgive me. So, on TOP of all the emotional damage, the shame, the loneliness, the financial burden, the depression, the agony that my children are suffering through, I must endure the process of forgiveness or risk Hell. What does this have to do with the Healer? God has whispered no comfort into my soul. Instead, I am left with an ultimatum to get better or be left without forgiveness myself. Some healing that is! I have cried more tears in this last year than I ever cried as a child.
Our Healer wants to hold me while I cry, does He? Well, I don't know what you call comfort, but this doesn't seem like comfort to me.
Our Healer