Hmmm, your subject is interesting. I think forgiveness is ongoing, because the healing is ongoing. I do forgive my husband, and I have said it out loud, and occasionally when I start to really feel the hurt, and the humiliation, and the anger - I want to take it back, because I feel like I've done something wrong in forgiving. I've mentioned before, my forgiveness sometimes has backfired on me, because there are days when everything feels good again that I almost regret it. I know forgiveness is not the same as forgetting - but sometimes I feel like my forgiveness makes it seem like all should be forgotten and never mentioned again - so it is indeed an ongoing struggle. I do forgive my husband, and I see that I played a role in steering him out of the marriage.
I question myself from time to time, wondering if I really truly forgave him. sometimes I think my forgiveness was given too quick - before I let all my emotions ride out what I was dealing with. I knew that it was what I wanted, and still do -- I just never imagined it would be this hard to get through over a year later.
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