Thank you for sharing. I am afraid to forgive and then find that I really haven't because all the pain and bitterness comes up. I feel like forgiving shouldn't be something that should be given lightly. (not that you did - I just don't want my actions to be contrary to this and I am afraid of this as I am going on a roller coaster each day_ This is the hardest process. At first, I thought that I could forgive and understand, but then the pain and reality keeps going deeper. I don't trust and I don't know how to ask for what I need without feeling like I am needy.
I think in the past I have forgiven too easily. I am lost and in pain at the moment. I still love him but the love is breaking my heart.
--me
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