I am the unfaithful spouse, I have had too many sexual encounters to mentions dating back to 2012, from brothels to prostitutes, and even declaring love to a couple of prostitutes, filming and using the material later on. I have had difficulty expressing my shame to such an extent that I continually contemplate suicide as I cannot see how I can ever help my wife to recover from this. Not only that I have drip fed my wife since March this year on the details and the extent of my behaviour. I do not feel I will ever be able to gain my trust from my wife again and she does not believe it either. We are still together and I have finally revealed the final secret to her last week that I held from her. She had mostly found out the information before, and then I admitted to it, it thus makes it very hard if not impossible for her to believe that there are more secrets. It seems I have conditioned her not to believe me from still holding secrets because of my recent actions.
I am on my knees now, as she continually says that I am still holding a major secret from her, and I do not know what to say to her anymore. She really believes she has a "feeling" that I still have not told her everything or that she knows for a fact that I have not revealed all, which is very understandable considering the way I have given her the information, but I have nothing left to give her what can I do now if I am still been told I am lying when I am not?
At a loss what to do and desperate to try and find some path to walk on, as I love her too much and do not want to loose her even though that is probably the best thing for her.
Drip feeding
I am the unfaithful spouse, I have had too many sexual encounters to mentions dating back to 2012, from brothels to prostitutes, and even declaring love to a couple of prostitutes, filming and using the material later on. I have had difficulty expressing my shame to such an extent that I continually contemplate suicide as I cannot see how I can ever help my wife to recover from this. Not only that I have drip fed my wife since March this year on the details and the extent of my behaviour. I do not feel I will ever be able to gain my trust from my wife again and she does not believe it either. We are still together and I have finally revealed the final secret to her last week that I held from her. She had mostly found out the information before, and then I admitted to it, it thus makes it very hard if not impossible for her to believe that there are more secrets. It seems I have conditioned her not to believe me from still holding secrets because of my recent actions.
I am on my knees now, as she continually says that I am still holding a major secret from her, and I do not know what to say to her anymore. She really believes she has a "feeling" that I still have not told her everything or that she knows for a fact that I have not revealed all, which is very understandable considering the way I have given her the information, but I have nothing left to give her what can I do now if I am still been told I am lying when I am not?
At a loss what to do and desperate to try and find some path to walk on, as I love her too much and do not want to loose her even though that is probably the best thing for her.