I'm sorry

I am the offender. I am the betrayer, and my poor wife is reeling on ups and downs now for going on 7 months since I told her I was unfaithful. We have good days, but then we have bad days. Reading your comments, I'm sad. I'm also sad because she's in a bad place right now in one of the lows. I am going to therapy, and group therapy, and attending 12-step meetings. I wish so badly I could take away her pain. I have completely shattered her trust and did something that I never thought I would do.
I am trying to do everything I can to help her heal, she's doing therapy too.

I wish I had gotten help combatting pornography earlier. I'm determined to raise a voice against porn with some of the movements that have come about. My addiction to porn is what really drove the problem further and further and further. I commend you for your patience and hanging on for 7 years. My heart is broken.

This is 5 years after your comment. I'm in the middle of my own mess.