Discover was 2 and a half months ago. My husband confessed to having a three month affair with his boss when I was pregnant with our youngest and second son nine years ago. I'm feeling really disconnected from my children. It feels like they were a part of this trick he played on me, and that everything is a lie. Plus, they're boys and now I'm afraid they'll just grow up to be selfish and awful like my husband. How do I feel connected to my sons again so I don't take this out on them? I get triggered by anything to do with babies and pregnancy. I feel so far away from everyone right now, but I need to be a mother.