I am doing my best to put my love for my daughter first, I always have. I'm writing again because I was hoping John could go into a little more detail about how he overcame losing his family unit and his best friend gaining it. It really is my most dominant obstacle to letting go. My husband still feels incapable of saying goodbye to his affair partner. More importantly, he doesn't want to. It's been 2 years of back and forth. I'm. So. Tired. I know what my husbands continued involvement with his affair partner, my former friend, means. I feel so broken yet on the verge as you put it, of a psychotic rage. If you can expand on anything you said before, I would be most grateful.