My husband never gave me full disclosure. He had to take a polygraph for me to find out that he was not only acting out with porn (again), but he had cheated on me since we were dating in high school with emotional/physical affairs, inappropriate female relationships (only friends were females and he would hang out with two at a time in the military), and he's even lied to cover up one of the three affairs (2 emotional (supposedly) and one that I know was over two years that was physical. I get that he has SA and he has attended counseling/intensives/SA group, but still lies. I found out recently about a past work Emotional affair. I'm back at ground zero.
I no longer do any counseling with him because he lies and breaks boundaries. 
How do I heal from this PTSD caused by years of lies and forced "trickle truth"?