One year ago I discovered my husband’s double life of dating prostitutes. In the past year, my husband has been doing all the right things (allowing me to monitor his phone, access to all the financial and credit cards, I count his pocket money, and he even took Hope for Healing.) The problem is that I cannot control the pain of my obsessive thoughts. The prostitutes that he visited frequently moved in my head like a carrousel. Some days I obsessed with one and few days later with another. When I obsessed with one, I reach to her. Some talk to me and tell me what I need to know, and then she is not more in my mental carrousel. Others ignored me and that hurt me, because it makes me feel that my husband has much intimacy with them. When I am alone with my son, I can concentrate and have some moment of peace and happiness, but as soon I remember my husband or see his name in the phone, all the pain and obsessions come back, it is like he is the trigger of all my negative emotions. So, I hear about brain spotting, and EMDR and other techniques and I want to know more about what these techniques actually do. I already tried medication for many months, they helped me with depression at the beginning, but they never help me with the obsessions. I feel like my life is about hunting for all facts of my husband’s deception.