Q&A How Can I Believe in Myself and the Honest Attempts of my Spouse?

Hi Rick How does the betrayed move past the long history of lies to ever find truth in the betrayer words and actions? My husband has a very long history of being dishonest. DDay was about 11 yrs ago. Since that horrible day I continued to deep down feel as though there was more to his story. I continued over the years to ask and search for answers. I was met with anger for not believing him and defensiveness. It took me years to come to grips with accepting this had indeed happened. Now as a result of EMSO class I was given more information that had been left out of his story and now feel like I am back at square one. I might add that there were also other issues with not being forthcoming in regards to pornography use. I feel like a fool for allowing him to convince me that I was indeed wrong in my thinking. How do the betrayed begin to not only believe in themselves but in the honest attempt of the betrayer for safety and security?