We are about 4.5 years out from D-Day with the first year being wasted on a therapist with lack of education on betrayal trauma. We have both completed EMS Online, Harboring Hope, and Hope for Healing. We each betrayed each other: mine being exposing my breasts to a male team member at a work conference about 2 years into our marriage (we have been married 35 years) and my husband engaging in secret masturbation our entire dating and marriage, recent 10 years online porn and a recent 8 year affair. We have done much work and have really seen progress yet it seems we are stuck now and most recently I am questioning so many things in response to my Christian faith…was Jesus really son of God, where is the feminine face of god, I am recognizing a very overpowering patriarchal presence in the church throughout history. This is really rocking my world and causing issues with my husband. I feel like everything I ever believed is having to get born again. How can I get to a more balanced psyche?