Q&A Will My Formerly Wayward Spouse Ever Feel Special to Me Again?

My wife and I were both virgins on our wedding night over 28 years ago, so we were both one and onlies...until her multiple infidelities. We have been working through recovery for about a year, and the thing that I have the most trouble with is what I call 'the special'. The specialness encompasses a large number of things like being one and onlies, like saving the sacred gift for your spouse until marriage, like a legacy of faithfulness and being able to pass on to our grandkids that we were one and onlies. Since that is gone, I feel like 'the special' is gone forever and it's not coming back. I thought she was special, I thought I was special to her and I thought we were special. Now I feel like 'the special' has been tossed aside never to return. How do I view my mate if I can't consider her to be special? I do love my wife, but I don't view her as special anymore. If that never comes back, what is your suggestion for the future? I saw many questions in the Q&A from betrayed spouses wondering if they would ever feel special again, but my question is will my formerly wayward spouse ever feel special to me again?