that's a relief

I have been blaming myself for my husband's cheating. I could have..... should have..... and a friend shared the other day that even if we had a bad marriage, he still should not cheat. And yet, I know he is hurting. Before he admitted to the affair - which continues today, He said he was "toxic" and feels like a failure. He says "she's just a diversion"... not sure what to do with that. But knowing my husband is hurting, I want to help but he and others have pulled me from rushing to him. Willing to forgive, even now.... yet praying for his return to the man I know and love.