My heart is aching for you tonight. You are worthy of faithfulness and I'm sorry you didn't receive it in your marriage. The sadness, anger, grieving and blow ups are part of the journey. What comes to my heart tonight is owning how you feel when you feel it. Pretending i was okay when I wasn't kept me stuck for 8 years. I wish I would have had the courage to be honest about my emotions. That being said, it might be helpful to dump all those feelings in a journal rather then blowing up at your spouse. I am praying for you tonight, especially praying that you will know when to speak up and when to let go. Keep processing. Keep moving forward.
grace for you
My heart is aching for you tonight. You are worthy of faithfulness and I'm sorry you didn't receive it in your marriage. The sadness, anger, grieving and blow ups are part of the journey. What comes to my heart tonight is owning how you feel when you feel it. Pretending i was okay when I wasn't kept me stuck for 8 years. I wish I would have had the courage to be honest about my emotions. That being said, it might be helpful to dump all those feelings in a journal rather then blowing up at your spouse. I am praying for you tonight, especially praying that you will know when to speak up and when to let go. Keep processing. Keep moving forward.