We are nearly a year past discovery. I must admit, my husband seems like he wants to change, and somehow, make amends. He is taking Hope for Healing and is open to seek treatment for his apparent sex addiction. He still has difficulty being empathetic, but, I guess, nothing can be perfect. The problem is with me. In the past year, due to the discovery, I was in psychiatric treatment, taking medication for depression and intrusive thoughts. I think, the medication and therapy were helping me, but sometimes, I had moments of sadness and resentment. When I have those episodes, my husband blamed my pain on the medication, he never recognized that his actions caused my pain, so two month ago, I decided to stop the medication so he cannot have more excuses. In the past year, I read dozens of books, search many website, watched every video. Now, I am here, in Harboring Hope, but I don’t want to join the sessions. I think that my lack of hope could affect the progress of other ladies that may still have the opportunity to heal. My husband asked me what he could possible do to heal the marriage. I, also, ask myself that question, but I don’t find an answer. It is possible to recover the hope? I guess, I it is a little bit of hope inside me, so I am asking this question, but every day, I feel like if I am becoming invisible and start to see my son, parents and my husband as people that I am observing from far away.