It has been 2 years since D-Day. My husband had a 3 month affair with a coworker when I found secret emails between them. Since then he has worked very hard to repair our marriage, although a few months into recovery he did contact the AP and kept it from me for 10 months. He said it was only to make sure she kept the affair quiet and was only thinking of protecting me. Could that be true? He understands how I felt like that was still a betrayal to me. We have done EMSO, individual and couples counseling, HH, reading books, reading blogs, and lots of talking. My husband has been reading the Bible Abiding life series daily. He has been open, understanding, loving, etc. There isn’t much more I could ask him to do but I wonder if I’m missing something I should be doing because I’m still struggling to be affectionate and intimate with him. I love his and want to stay married. I even picture a close and loving relationship with him but when it comes time for me to let go of the past and imagining him with her I pull back. I’m still having a hard time getting past the betrayal. What more can I do?