My husband and I are doing the EMS Online program and are to the week to list the cost. I am the hurt spouse. Our D-day was over a year ago and I thought I was good. However doing this chapter has been very difficult because of the pain that keeps coming back up. Emotionally I feel like I have been pushed back into the roller coaster I was on during the first 6 months. Is this normal? Does this mean I buried the pain and need to work more on healing? I know my husband has hurt himself because of the choices he made and that is one reason I pushed for us to take this course.