I am struggling with sexual intimacy as an unfaithful wife. I feel like I am ruined from my prior sexual experiences and childhood traumas and still have so much shame that I now allowed someone else to use my body for their own pleasure when it didn’t belong to them during my one-night affair. I didn’t receive pleasure from anyone else so I’m not worried about that. I have gotten deeper into faith and this has begun eating at me how unclean I feel. How do I stop feeling this way? My husband is wonderful and is helping to try to repair this so it is not something he is making worse - I don’t want him to feel like he is at fault, I just want to figure out how I can try to move forward for my sake and his. We want our marriage to be a pursuit of God’s gifts and promises and removing this shame will be huge for that.