Almost four years ago my husband moved out, said he didn't love me anymore and began an entangled affair with a younger woman. I chose to stay and wait it out and throughout the affair he struggled greatly between coming home to me and our three kids and continuing on with her. After a year, I moved to another town with the kids and shortly after he finally cut ties with his AP and followed us. For a year we were in counseling, I thought we were progressing slowly, but well. Then a year ago he admitted he continues to struggle in his head and can't forgive himself for what he's done. He was diagnosed with depression and has health issues which make it hard for him to sleep and feel well. He thought his feelings/memories for her would go away but they haven't. There has been one contact in a year and a half. We went to EMS in September. Since then I've done Harboring Hope which has been wonderful. He just started Hope for Healing in January. We are great friends, great businesses partners, and enjoy each other. He doesn't want to hold me back and have me waste my life on him anymore because he loves me as a best friend and I think that's it. It would have to be me moving ahead with a divorce, which I am so sad to do. I don't want to waste my life either, but I will always have hope and don't know what I should do.