I'm an unfaithful wife and didn’t fully disclose for 7 years. He is dealing with facing the extent of my infidelity and also the 7 years of deception. I'm truly remorseful for what I have done and have been committed to God and grown spiritually over the last seven years. He is the reason I finally came clean with the whole truth. I'm so confused as to why this happened in the first place and I know you say I need to discover why I did what I did but I truly don't know why other than I was listening to the wrong spirit. I truly remember when God lifted the darkness from my life and forced me to turn away from the sinful acts. I had multiple one time affairs over 3-4 months. It is very difficult to remember exact times because I hated myself and what I was doing then so it's like I've forced myself to forget. The problem is my husband doesn't believe me and thinks I'm lying about that too. We are in the EMSO right now and I'm learning what I need to do to make my husband feel safe and to build trust. The problem is the course mostly talks about the husband as the unfaithful and it makes me and my husband feel even more alone and desperate for help. For example the Harboring Hope is just for betrayed women. What can my husband and I do for more support during this very difficult time?