My husband has had two physical affairs with co-workers, and multiple emotional affairs. There were so many emotional affairs that he says he can’t remember all of them. One of them though I found a conversation between the two of them that was dated two weeks before our wedding day. She told him she wanted to crash our wedding and wear her sluttiest outfit. He responded that he didn’t care if she crashed the wedding, and that he wanted to go on our honeymoon with her. We have only been married a year now. I don’t know how to get passed the feeling that his vows were a lie to me, and that our marriage isn’t what he truly wanted. Does he really not remember how many people he had an emotional affair with? How do I get past the feeling that our marriage is a lie?