Q&A Can You Help Me Understand the Strange Emotional Place I'm In?

Back in March, after 18 years of marriage, I discovered my husbands was having an affair. Over the last 5 weeks I have been doing really well. Maybe because we did the 7 day boot camp. I had not been crying, and some days I actually went a whole day with out it even coming to my mind. But now over the last week or so I feel emotions coming back. It feels very different, like they just sit on the edge of my heart and my mind. Almost like a thin cloud of sadness. I don't really cry, my eyes just water up. I almost wish I would just cry. It feels a little numbing. Typically I have no issue showing my emotions! Also during the past 2 weeks I found out my very best friend had been having an affair (for a few years). The whole time I cried to her about the awful pain I was in she was having an affair. We all have actively been pursuing God. We all prayed together, worshiped together, even helped build a ministry together. Seems like the bubble I lived in is gone. I cant seem to find a "safe place" for my heart and mind. What is this strange emotional place I find myself in? How do I explain it to my husband? and how can he even help me?