Dear Rick, it has been two years since EMS weekend. Our marriage has survived and my husband has done everything to change and is committed to me and saving our family. I personally am finding it hard to love him the way I did prior to D day. I'm a changed woman and am unable to get back so many feelings I used to have for him. Our intimacy has suffered greatly as I find that when we are together, I'm triggered to anger. I suffer from intrusive thoughts prior, during and after intimacy. How can I move on from this. I want to be close to my husband but am finding it so difficult. Any advise you have would be greatly appreciated. Thank you