My husband has made hurtful comments about my body for years. He has a desire for a different kind of body type to the point that we can’t go out at all. He will find that body type to lust over even with me next to him. It’s so hurtful. He says he’s trying but I feel hurt unloved and violated non-stop if he’s able to not look that means she was not want he calls a high number. He will also tell me how he wishes I would do my hair certain ways. He has told me that he does prefer them over me sexually. I find it hard to believe him in any way when he say I pretty as he just start saying it and really only when we are close that said. I am pregnant and I just can’t have him at the hospital. I keep trying to tell him he knows if there’s a girl that is his type he won’t be able to not look and I would be able to tell if and when he tries to hide it I just know for my mind I can’t do it. I would love ideas how to not feel so bad about my body. I know I can never be as good as their body type he wants as I have been told but how do I love myself with all this going around me. He is in counseling but I don’t trust the counselor as he was told to have the emotional affair and she keeps asking him if he wants to be married to me.