The most recent D-Day was Jan 8, 2019, The previous day, we'd been told our baby has a physical deformity at 20 weeks pregnant. I cried all day, did not sleep, and took the following day off from work. He argued all day, I did not rest, so I left to cool off. I am a believer, and have always told him, whatever is done in darkness will come to light. That night, after another argument, he lied and said he was going to work. He went to meet up with an AP, I found out because I was woken up by God and asked to see his phone and looked at our phone records, and noticed discrepancies. He says it was not physical, but who would believe a liar? Apparently he had been texting 2 different women from his job since November 2018. He's had 2 physical affairs, and multiple texting affairs, flirts uncontrollably and says he's just a funny guy and everyone enjoys it, says he felt rejected, they made him feel good. We've done EMSO in 2017, and learned a lot, but he never actually did his own work. He once again had a "miraculous talk with God", only happens when he's caught, but doesn't walk with God consistently. I don't know what to think of him or our marriage. I've started my own recovery, which I didn't do before, HH and going to ISA. I'm just frustrated to be here again. I don't really know what to think of my husband.. I've gone from thinking he's a narcissist, psychopath, ADD, sex addict, compulsive liar, and I just want to know what I'm dealing with!