It's been 18 months since discovery and my husband and I just completed EMSO last week. It's helped us in many ways. After a difficult time, we're on the road to recovery, but...we haven't been able to re-engage sexually. He hasn't even attempted to touch me in nearly a year. He says he has ED but it seems to me that he has lost all desire for me. We are both in our fifties and he is the unfaithful. His doctor gave him a prescription for Cialis four months ago and he has yet to get it filled...or so he led me to believe. I found the pills last night and saw where they came to our home by UPS in August! And here I thought that he was trying to be honest with me and rebuild trust. I feel that this is a big breach. I don't know if I can forgive him, especially with him knowing intimacy is a part of our relationship that I really wanted to recapture. Why would he do this? After all I've forgiven? To hide the pills and allow me to continue to ask if he was going to get the prescription filled? He's betrayed me yet again. I feel like throwing in the towel.