I had an affair with my ex-wife after 26 years of marriage. I found out that I still am in love with my ex-wife and want to be with her. I feel horrible leaving my wife and 4 adult children. I feel held hostage to try and do the right thing and stick the marriage out. I'm no longer happy in our marriage, there is no true connection. I'm truly in love and connected to my ex, who never got remarried after she divorced me for being unfaithful to her, 30 years ago.