Q&A How Can I Get Past the Repulsion I have Towards my Spouse? Video Restricted to Recovery Library members. Question I am having great difficulty wanting to reengage physically with my husband after I found out that his emotional affairs were also physical. It has been 2 years since Dday 1 and 6 months (Dday 2) since I found out the emotional affairs were really physical. The time between his two affairs with the AP was 20 years, so I have 20 years of deception with which to deal. I also am unsure if there were any affairs in between the two over the …To continue reading, please purchase a subscription to the Recovery Library.Gain unlimited access to over 1,800 articles and expert Q&A videos.Already a Recovery Library member? Log in to read the full article.Sections: Recovery LibraryLeslie and John's callsRL_Category: Emotional RegulationFind HopeFor The Hurt SpouseHandling DiscoveryHow to ForgiveIntrusive ThoughtsSafety in RecoverySexual HealingRL_Media Type: Audio