I do not want to restore intimacy with my husband. I am in the process of forgiving him, have been in Affair Recovery for 7 lessons, and am 1 week from the Anniversary Date of him telling me. We were able to be intimate for about 8 months after I found out - it wasn't as often as before, but still happened. For the past 4 months being intimate at any level brings horrible images into my mind and kind of disgusts me b/c I know he has done all of it with her. I waited to have sex until I was married, and he had had numerous partners before we got married. I guess I was under the impression that when we got married this was something very special that he would only do with me.... sex has been truly tarnished and it grosses me out now. How do I restore desire to share this with him again? He has expressed his sadness that I don't want to be intimate. I know it is important to him. Having a hard time caring that he is missing it.