What am I working through all this for? I've read of people who say their marriage is restored, but then talk about bad days and triggers. Some two, three, some as much as ten years later. I keep looking for hope for a future with my husband, but all I see is partial happiness. Will this always be here? The triggers painful? The memories sorrowful? I just don't see the reason to work through it anymore if I'm going to be stuck in a semi happy marriage. Plus, our marriage was not happy from the beginning, how can it be now?