My husband and I are in married for life after attending EMS weekend last Summer. I have experienced some trickle truth since leaving EMS. Despite the trickle truth, we have been making great strides in our recovery and I've noticed that triggers are getting further and further apart. Unfortunately, I did have a trigger last week that made me spiral out of control and begin demanding answers to questions that I felt didn't make sense to me. He admitted to sleeping with his AP's one time more than what he originally said. He had 5 AP's, but admitted during this trigger that there was another woman that he was talking to but it did not lead to a sexual relationship. I demanded a polygraph. He agreed to take one and even found one on his own and paid the deposit. The night before the polygraph, I decided that I did not want him to do it because I do not feel that they are reliable enough. My question is will it hurt our recovery if I never receive full disclosure? A part of me wonders if he is still lying to me about his affairs, but on the flip side, my husband has made great strides in making the changes that are needed for our recovery. What is your advice?