Hi Rick, We were, I thought on the path to reconciliation until just after Easter,She came to me the Thursday after and said I am done lets separate. I don't know what caused her to have the decision but an very bad argument a couple of weeks before that really had her shaken up and a few weeks before she had been contemplating suicide. These two things made her feel as if she just couldn't go on it drained her and was taking away all her energy and happiness. The two weeks in between were good as could be expected we still have arguments over house things but not affair related. So trying to reconcile at least I am she wants to go back to the AP. She changed all passwords and is leading the private life that i cannot monitor. We have been in CC and we are now talking co-parenting and divorce is what she says she wants to pursue. So I had my wife read this passage and it was going well until the parenthesis of Penance. So her comment made me reread this. I think she was looking as it saying no amount of punishment can be given that isn't deserved. I read it as just no matter what they do it cant be taken back. What is your closer examination of what you wrote trying to convey?